Tuesday, January 12, 2010

I'm writing for 2 reasons

The first is that I promised her I would. I couldn't finish my book by 9:45 this morning when we watched my grandmother's life slip past us, so I felt a little like a failure. Then I remembered nothing is stopping me from reading what I write to her, although I'll miss out on her exegesis. We told her it was ok, and she agreed. A lady always knows when to leave.

The other reason is because I have so much in my mind that I wanted to send a trickle out for a moment so that maybe I could put my thoughts together. I understand the difference between fair and unfair. Many things about my grams life was unfair but one thing was most definitely the latter. Who could ask for anything more than to be surrounded by the ones you love when you take your final journey?

That's all I can say right now. I know it's not poetic or even very organized but it felt good.

Barbaretta Lois Hill
January 11th, 1937- January 11th, 2010

"Hey kids!"

(©2009 Lotus B.)


Selah said...

I'm sorry for your loss mija... From all that you've said about her in your blog it seems your grandmother had a long life in which she was very loved (and I know she was so proud of you)... I'm sure she is in peace right now. :)

Dang. I don't even "know" you and I'm crying. I need to man up. :/

Lotus B. said...

Thanks Selah, your a sweet heart. I know in our own bloggy little world we're friends and I appreciate the support. ;)